meant to be SINGLE, i guess...

-------- short story --------
:: kenal thru one site ::
:: those shoutouts ::
:: those winks ::
:: add lagi di Facebook ::
:: know DIA better ::
:: heyy , we got same taste in common , A LOT ! ::
:: those wall-to-wall ::
:: and there's a girl , obviously tryin to tackle ::
:: and it was ughh ... !! ::
:: and there i saw "iloveyou" ::
:: and here i am ::
:: GIVING UP ::
:: END ::
p/s : I LOIKE U ! =')

the truth is ...

when i think back of the past...

the truth is : i was grateful !

when i knew B***...

the truth is : i was happy to get to know u !

when i was in the accident with u...

the truth is : it's a beautiful memory with u !

when u told me u cried over me...

the truth is : i was touched !

when u said u fall for someone else...

the truth is : i was brokenhearted !

when u said u still love me...

the truth is : i was so happy !

when we were in a relationship...

the truth is : i was sooo in heaven !

when we clashed up...

the truth is : i just don't wanna let go of u !

when u're back in a relationship with her...

the truth is : i was pathetic !

when u clashed up with her...

the truth is : i just don't know how i feel !

when u said u like someone...

the truth is : i was jealous !

when u keep in touch with me...

the truth is : i wonder who am i to you !

when we keep texting and calling...

the truth is : i was in my great ego that i didn't tell u how much i love u !

AND WHEN U READ THIS ...

THE TRUTH IS : I WANT U TO KNOW, I LOVE U TO THE MAX TIL THE END OF ME !

p/s : still loving u..still waitin'..hoping !
*this is for u ... fishyy ! =')

bila saya marah ...

bila saya marah...

saya sakit hati !

bila saya marah...

saya suka lepas geram !

bila saya marah...

saya tak angkat call !

bila saya marah...

saya suka sebut kata-kata kesat !

bila saya marah...

saya suka lemparkan barang !

bila saya marah...

saya dah tak kisah orang lain !

bila saya marah...

saya akan menangis kalau tak tau nak lepas geram mcmane !

p/s : TOLONG JANGAN BUAT SAYA MARAH ! *sekarang ni tengah marah la jugak !

ma bloodies =)

lambat ceta aku kan ? Update2 blog, tapi xda ceta pasal backgroud...haha ! Well, this time,aku akan cetakan serba sedikit pasal family aku ... a huge family,that's what i can describe my family ... ermm, i'm the youngest sister in my family..5 adik beradik,and i'm the last one ! Bongsu lah .. haha ! 1st sis and 2nd bro dah married...bro dah ada 2 anak stakat tok,and surely will have another ! =D My sis yang dah married ya, blom ada anak..my 3rd bro,still study,kat KSKB Kuching,bakal MA ! Hoho..habis la kena injection mun nakal tk...ngee ~ my 4th sis, now menganggur,tunggu mk konvo on this coming June . So, overall , i got tow sis' and 2 bros ! 

Okayy , now bout cuzzies and otha relatives . Cuzzy yang paling kamceng , stay in Kedah . Musim perayaan (Christmas) slalu gathering ngan cdak..thats y laa slalu x sabar2 mok tggu Christmas..huhu ! So this year, aku janji ngan my cuzzy, mok berik nya hp SE T707..sebagai birthday present =) at least aku berik nya sumthing ngan nya kan ? Heehee..cuzzy aku yang laki paling kamceng , abang kpada cuzzy pmpuan tk tekk..nya terer men piano (jeles mati la mun nya tag nama aku kat video nya di fb) ! Seriously mok jadi kdak nya !! Ngam2 aku ngan nya minat Bruno Mars .. wahh !! Minat ngan Bruno Mars ehh..well, cuzzy2 aku tok,mix Hindu .. so x heran la muka cdak nang kacak2...aku pun orang slalu salah faham..1st time org nangga muka aku,mesti org madah aku tk Indian...aww !! Hahaha ... ada connection ngan bapa cuzzy aku kott ! Haa, kat dbah tok lak ku akan tnjuk gmbar cuzzy2 aku yang nang ada la juak mirip2 Indian...ngehehe ! Check it out keyh ? ::OUT::

• 1st and 2nd picts - cuzzy yang kamceng (mix blood)
• yang lain2 picts, cuzzy yang ada mirip2 Indian
• lain2 lagi (haha), my siblings =)
• biak kecik 2 orang kat dibah ya, my queens !! Cute ehh ... aww !

1st - Angeliza

2nd - Junior

Anthea

1st sis - Helda

3rd bro - Febian

2nd bro - Andy

4th sis - Ha

  

2nd niece - Ashlynn

my niece - Allyssa

when the world screams ...

hey ye peeps ! Ermm, tadik, masa tgh dinner, smbil2 nangga tv (news), ada la pasal tsunami ya..well, desas desus nktok,bnyak org madah dunia akn kiamat on 2012 .. rumors or truth ? Kita x tauk juak kan ? Tapi, tsunami yang melanda Jepun kali tk, nang bena2 berik effect yang lain ngn aku .. idk, mun teringat,sedih juak,smpey nangis pun ada..kesian glak2 nangga rakyat Jepun kan ? Rasa insaf la juakk, bersyukur kita sik berada lam keadaan ya..sedar2 la,life is short,very short dat we can't live as long as we want ! Mun bena la dunia akan kiamat dalam tahun 2012 , knak kita sik insaf2 ? Lagi2 kita dengar jenayah makin bertambah stiap ari, especially kes buang bayi ! Seriously, apa dah jadi ngan manusia nktok ?? U did s**,for what ? Hanya nikmat semata2 ? Ingat Tuhan baa, mun malu terlanjur pun, selesaikan la dgn cara bagus, sak org x anok kita tk lebih teruk dari binatang..even animals love its kids,so why don't human ? Kita diberik akl fikiran, iboh la ngkah kat palak lutut ! The babies are innocent , ur own bloodies ! Tergamak gk molah cmya ? *nah,aku dah out of topic juak dari tsunami tekk ! Haishh...!!

Okayy, back to our topic pasal tsunami tekk..fellas, aku xtauk mk madah gney, tapi, juh la insaf k ? Kita x tauk apa akan jadi lepas tk..cukup la ya sebagai amaran kpada kita..make good things, show ur love,okay ? No more articles such "mayat bayi ditemui di....." ! Please, think rational . Think God . *demmit ! Kluar topik lagi !

Back to tsunami...kesian kan ngga cdaknya? Let us pray for Japanese, okay ? God's listening, God will help..insan lain perlukan kita nktok, we do our best . Seriously, we stay in this one Earth .. apa blaku ngan negara lain , kita terlibat ! walaupun cdak bukan di Malaysia, tapi kita sama manusia..satu contoh dah ada, letupan nuklear di Jepun..i recently received a text message from my friends,warned me not to get exposed to the rain..tk gara2 letupan nuklear ya tekk..mun kena hujan,air hujan ya mungkin mengandungi asid yang blh menyebabkan kanser kulit etc. see ? Kita semua terlibat ! Japanese are not just Japanese ! We are humans that live in the Earth and we relates to each otha ! Please , pray for the best...we deserve the best in future. God bless us.Thank you,Lord ! ::OUT::

• renung2kan gambar tsunami kat Jepun dibah tk..Pray for Japan ! =')

          

when HE appears =)

huuuu , aku leka ceta pasal ceta lepas2, tapi lupak mk intro my new bf Christian Steve ! kenal2 thru fb jak, he's been so sweet posted on my wall , inbox-ed me, chatted me ... aku dh mula rasa nya kinda sweet, i like his personality and all .. and on 14th March, we declared as a couple ! wow, that's quick,kan ? Haha ! aku harap nya dapat bantu aku lupakan kisah silam ya .. tapi hubungan aku ngn Steve doesn't mean aku dah lupak fishyy .. aku still cntact ngan nya , masih sayang nya..aku akan perbetulkan keadaan. =) 

and Steve , be my best boyfie please ! =D even x contact pkey hp (tekejut ? yess, aku ngan Steve just cntact thru fb..hp nya hilang,so xpat mk cntact thru phone =( and nya janji will try to get one afta nya beli camera,he's saving to buy a new DSLR cam !) , i'll try my best to maintain relationship tok.. wish us a goodluck yah ? ::OUT::

<--------- this is my boyfie ! =)) ---------->

apabila cuti sakit...

nahh,ari tok aku cuti sakit,yang sik la sakit glak...ermm,aku headache,demam ... bnyak yang pesan suh makan ubat, tapi aku nang glak2 sik suka makan ubat !! lebih suka kalau bia jak smbuh dikpun..haha ! well, kesan ku nangis malam tadi , mata aku bngkak & badan aku pun dah lemah x bmaya . Ya la kesan mun aku nangis terlampau teruk . Blh jatuh sakit ! Huhu .. tapi best juakk , sak sik turun keja . Ahahaha ! sempat juak ku ambik gambar pemandangan tekk,ya la keja aku mun borink..salah 1 minat aku ba ya,i wish to be a photographer satu ari klak..now tgh kumpul duit mk beli camera DSLR ! still bingung mk beli Nikon or Canon. HUHU ! well , i'm feelin' better now, and thanks to those whose support me, seriously ! Life's a venture, we won't be ups forever ! So, sapa2 yang tgh down, no worries..hadapi dgn tenang,suma ny akan okayy,TRUST ME !! Suma apa yg blaku, ada hikmah . Happiness will come, aku brani bet utk kata2 aku tok...so,TAKE IT EASE yah ! (-.-)v

• p/s : smbil2 ya, enjoy dengar lagu favorite aku tok k ? =)

tears tears and tears ='(

skali gk ku teringat nya....rasa kdak org bodo jak aku nangis gara2 nya,ingat nya....yes,aku tgh nangis nktok while writing this blog (siap pasang lagu yang buat aku tkenang nya gikk) .. btapa aku sedar aku bukan sapa2 bagi nya gikk.aku sorg jak yg syok sndiri ingat nya,sayang nya sepenuh hati.sikda apa dapat describe feeling aku nktokk..tersangat sedih,down glak2..say i'm stupid,memang ! Keluar air mata sampai mata bengkak pun xda guna . Semuanya dah xda harapan . Sik mungkin suma diputar balit . IMPOSSIBLE !!! Aku just mk luah rasa ati aku..aku sayang kau gilak2,you..aku xpat lupak kau ! Maybe kau x sedar, sebab aku tahan selama tk .. aku xmok dituduh obses ngan kau kdak kau anok your ex before...::OUT::

• no more late calls
• no more text messages as often as before
• no more sweet talks
• no more dates
• NO MORE YOU ! ='(

when pasts comes knocking ...

okayy, lamak sik update blog...i dun really know mk pdh apa,tp asa mk luah sumthing jakk . almost 3 months afta the clashed up, kmk still gk ingat ny...tapi,i'm better then before. Kmk dah a bit okay. to be honest, nang kmk gik syg nya, and now tgh try mk accept the fact yang kmk 2 nktok, JUST FRIEND ! Kmk tauk ny nang dh xda ati ngn kmk, xhal ... kmk x boleh mk pksa juak nk? Tok hal perasaan,apa2 pun,pelu faham others . =')

Eh, aokk .. lupak gk 1 hal .. biak skuntap ya texted me few nights tk .. ny madah ny rindu ngn kmk,nanya cney kmk LI,kmk terlintas lam fkiran ny...kmk mk jawab "jadi apa kaitan kau lam hal aku?",tp kmk x reply text ny,sbb kmk tauk,makin kmk reply,makin ny akan ngaco kmk....so, i better kept silence kan ? So, i really wish she get lost in my life like we neva knew each otha !

p/s : i miss the old times ='(

25th September - never forgotten !

Well , 25th Sept 2010 ... my fishyy and i, having our hangout (or could be a date =) ) at Santubong...my fishyy,wearin a blue shirt while orange for me..fishyy a lil bit drunk,yess,tipsy ! On our back home, i ride with fishyy,havin' our wonderful time in a maroon Proton Wira *** 4762 .. where the spaces between my fingers was fit perfectly by fishyy's ! the moment, can't be described by words actually,but i tried to in this =)

Minutes by minutes, the car suddenly outta control and fishyy just dont get the chance to restraight the way and **crash** !!!! accident !! my phone was stole by an opportunist, swollen face,bruised waist and neck ... wow,what a pain !

Can't keep in touch with my fishyy (phone stolen) =( well, i do love the memory .... and i love my fishyy so damn much !! idk if fishyy wud feel the same towards me .... =))